Fear.

I don’t have a fear of commitment-
I have a fear of abandonment.
We all screw things up, I screw things up.
Especially with the people I love.
I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close. I get confused, I don’t understand all of it.
But I keep pushing because I hope in this thing.
The universe.
There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad.
If I want it someone else out there must too."